Out of the mouths of babes. This is what Sophie said to me as we were getting ready for the funeral on Tuesday. Thank God for my girls.The visitation and the funeral went very well. So many people came to offer their support and prayers - it is quite humbling. The Mass was beautiful, as was Fr. Meier's homily. I had selected all the music the day before with the choir director, and the songs were perfect. You could not have asked for better weather either. After the funeral, we went to my sister's house for lunch, and visiting with family was a welcome distraction.
Greg's family remained in town until yesterday. Greg's dad and brother planted a new tree in our backyard in honor of Benjamin. It's a dogwood, and we found the perfect place for it. My family also came over, and helped with the girls and laundry.
Now is when it starts to get difficult. All of the planning and distractions of the past few days are gone. It is quiet now as my girls take their naps, and now we are left with our thoughts. The thoughts are constant and never ending. I dream about Ben and the hospital, I wake up thinking about him. When you least expect it is when you are overcome with sadness. But then Sophie reminds me that it is a happy day, and she tells me that she loves it when I smile.
We are going to pray for you everyday. I hope you continue to write on the blog. We would love updates on how the girls are doing. I know kids can do and say the funniest things. I wish we could have stayed longer. We will have to plan a trip back to visit very soon. Maybe next time you need yard work.
ReplyDeleteWe love all of you. Tony, Suzie and kids.
"Sophie and Meg will always have an angel watching over them, because a brother's work is never done!"
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We love and miss you lots and are always thinking about you guys!
-Mal
I've been wondering how you are doing, so I was glad to see an update to the blog. Getting back to the normal things must be very difficult, and will only get easier with God and time. We are still praying for you every day. I heard something the other day that really made me think: All children are children of God, right? When we give birth to a child, that child is only on "loan" to us from God...the greatest gift we could ever ask for, but still only temporary until one of us leaves this Earth. No matter how short of a time Ben was here with us, God chose YOU to care for him...He couldn't have picked anyone better. You're absolutely right in saying you will never be the same...you will all be BETTER in everything you do because of Ben. And you'll never look at Sophie and Meg the same again...I know MY perspective has certainly changed when I count my blessings. Thinking of you in all we do, The Lewis Family (P.S. I LOVE the picture of the girls...wouldn't it be nice to see through the innocent eyes of a child again?)
ReplyDeleteI am glad you are still writing posts - i have been thinking about you guys all of the time and always wondering how you are doing. Hope to see you soon and we are keeping praying for you!
ReplyDeleteWe all like when you smile and I know it must be hard these days. I will be praying that those little ladies continue to give you more joy than you knew possible at this time. I am praying for you my friend.
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